It Was Just A Dry Spell

I thought I was done.

I had no more ideas or thoughts on the matter.

I was a little sad about it being over, but mainly I was relieved.  I was empty of the daily narrative that seems to me to be selfish.  How can I possibly think of myself that much? And to write it all down? That’s narcissistic.  I was getting tired of myself and thankfully, I was done.

Two days went and then a week and I thought, “hmmm, maybe I shouldn’t have gone through the trouble of setting up the blog…”

But then something happened. (It was the *Cereal and Milk* day). And it all started spilling out of my head again.

I’m beginning to believe that that is how grief works. 

It stops.  

There are a lot of sunny days in a row (literally and figuratively).

You think maybe you can move forward.

You’re relieved to have it off your back.

You think you can move on from thinking about yourself and how sad you are all of the time.

And you’re ready to be yourself again.

And then it kicks you in the teeth.

And you have to start all over.

Author: Admin

I was happily married for almost 24 years. My husband and I had were raising two children. Shortly before our 24th anniversary, Tom died suddenly of heart attack. My world stopped. With kids (ages 16 and 13) there isn't the luxury of mourning at my own pace. I had to roll up my sleeves and help each with their own grief all the while managing mine. It is very hard. I am sad that some of you may have found this blog as you are trying to navigate your own traumatic event. Let me be here for you. Grief is fickle. Just when you think you are strong enough to manage a second, a minute, an hour, Grief changes her mind and punches you in the gut. You are not alone. I'm going through it, too. I am here for you.

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