(Nothing makes losing Tom any easier, but sometimes my imagination gets the best of me. I imagine him having conversations with God and discussing the reasoning for all of this. It’s a mystery, I know. It makes me happy for a second when I think that they are both cheering me on.)
T: Why did it go like this?
G: Because she was going to support you and help you and be the best mom and wife she could be. FOR YOU!
T: She was… is. That’s why I don’t understand.
G: She couldn’t do what I need her to do while you were there.
T: That’s just cruel. I want to be there. She wants me to be there! I always supported her fully with any choices she made.
G: I know. But she needed different choices, so she could realize her strength. Meanwhile, I have a job for you up here. That’s why I called you a little earlier than originally planned. It’s very important and I’m going to keep you busy for a while. And then, when the time is right, we’ll look down. You won’t believe what you see!
T: She is strong and stubborn and just…wonderful. She’s always late, though. Do you think she’ll get these tasks you speak of started on time?
G: Oh yes, she’s already started. She is tough! She is smart and she is just about to amaze everyone with her strength.
T: She’s always been full of surprises—that is one of the reasons I married her!
G: We’ll wait and you’ll see. We have nothing to worry about. She loves your children to her core. The Momma Bear is awake. She’s got this!
T: I’m already so proud of her.
