Filing Taxes

Everyone dreads April 15, right? The stress, the pressure, the deadline, all the papers and math involved. And for some reason, I always feel like I might end up in jail afterward.

I was the one who gathered up all the papers and delivered them to the accountant. When they came back, Tom was the one who read everything thoroughly and put little red post-it arrows near every line I was supposed to sign.

This was the first tax season without him. It was going okay, I did all of the leg work like normal. All of the forms came back as expected. I was ready to do it. I am smart, I can do it.

I started flipping through feeling less confident. But then I stopped. I couldn’t do any more.

Because Dec. is written all over my tax forms

It doesn’t mean December, it means deceased.

This is something that most people don’t know.

The reminders never end.

The term Dec. is throughout my tax form.

“Shut up! Stop reminding me! As if I could ever forget!“ I want to shout to no one.

Instead, I put everything back in the folder and saved it for another day.

Author: Admin

I was happily married for almost 24 years. My husband and I had were raising two children. Shortly before our 24th anniversary, Tom died suddenly of heart attack. My world stopped. With kids (ages 16 and 13) there isn't the luxury of mourning at my own pace. I had to roll up my sleeves and help each with their own grief all the while managing mine. It is very hard. I am sad that some of you may have found this blog as you are trying to navigate your own traumatic event. Let me be here for you. Grief is fickle. Just when you think you are strong enough to manage a second, a minute, an hour, Grief changes her mind and punches you in the gut. You are not alone. I'm going through it, too. I am here for you.

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